VIDEO On My Way To Hell With Religion As My Guide

On My Way To hell With Religion As My Guide

Jennifer Bagnaschi

 My whole life changed at the age of 17 when I was given the shock of a lifetime! A blunt revelation transformed my walk with God forever. In return, I learned the contrast between religion and relationship.

   TRAILING BEHIND MY BIG sister, Leslie, I made my way to the altar at the age of eight to give my heart to Jesus.   And for years that became my pride.  I’d go around boasting, “I’ve been saved since I was eight!”  That sort of became my trophy for a long time.  Instead of giving glory to Jesus Christ for His painful sacrifice on the cross for my salvation, I’d give it to myself for becoming born again at such a young age.

I Saw God Last Night: Whoever Said He's Dead, Flat Out Lied!

      When I was around 17 years old, I was given a dream that shook me to the core.  I dreamed I was joyriding in a car with two other friends in the backseat, and I was the driver.  Then, I foolishly yelled to them, “Let’s drive into a wall!” Strangely enough, they gladly accepted.  The first wall I could find was a red bricked wall and I drove head on into it.  I didn’t feel a thing.  I just remember being instantly in a different location other than Earth; I was in Hell. I don’t know how I knew, but I just knew it, and I was being nailed to a cross, hanging upright in a very bright, white room. With my arms outstretched with no control over my body, I could hear the thick and heavy thuds of hammers banging into my hands simultaneously, but I couldn’t feel anything (more than likely because it was a dream). I tried to look over to see who was hammering the nails but I couldn’t, I just knew that there was more than one unpleasant being mercilessly banging into my hands.  I suppose my feet had already been nailed or tied because I briefly remember them being bound together at the bottom.  

      What gripped me the most was that there was also an absolute knowing I had that Jesus was also present in the room.  So I turned my head to the left, as far as I could to see Jesus, but I couldn’t.  I began to wail and cried out to Him, “…but Jesus, I love You.”  Then He walked over from my left and stood directly in front of me.  I still couldn’t see Him, yet I knew He was there.  He answered these three words I will never forget, “No.  You don’t.”   Then I woke up.

 The very next day, I remember getting onto the school bus telling my best friend about the dream, afterward promising I’d never sin again. I realized I was really lying.

 What a contradiction. I didn’t get the dream.  I just held on to Jesus’ words when I told Him I loved Him. It shocked and hurt me when He told me I didn’t.  So I told a close relative of mine the dream and what Jesus said, and they responded, “Jesus would never say that!  That’s not right!”  Without even realizing it, I responded, “Jesus tells it like it is.  He can’t lie!”  

And it was in that moment that I questioned all my years of being a “Christian”.  Was I really a Christian or was I just a “holy-rollie” beating people with the Bible? If I died today, would I really miss Heaven and end up in Hell?  And most of all, the biggest question was: Did I really love Jesus?


   A few months later in my high school science class, a friend who was sitting across from me laughed and said to me, “Jenny, you’re so funny.”  I asked her, “How so?”  And she replied, “You’re just hilarious!  When people say they don’t believe in Jesus, you just get mad and say, ‘Oh well, you’re just going to Hell then!’  And when she said that, it was as if all of time had stopped.  I saw my friend almost falling on the floor laughing, but it was as if her laughter was put on mute.  I was cut to the heart, realizing Jesus was nothing like that. Jesus never got mad at people if they didn’t believe He was the Son of God.  He never blew the final whistle as I had and damned someone to Hell.  He didn’t give up on them.  He’d tell them the truth in love, stating, “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  No man comes to the Father but by Me” (John 14:6).   Jesus had already planted the seed– either people would accept or reject.  If they rejected, that was on them. But He always left the door open for repentance and Truth (Matthew 4:17, John 8:11).

   Still in the moment, I suddenly saw a slideshow in my mind of all the times I’d verbally attack someone if they didn’t agree with me about Jesus, or the times I’d curse others to Hell for not believing.  I knew my friend thought I’d laugh along with her, but I didn’t.  It was then that I felt a deep remorse for how I treated people, having the audacity to falsely represent Jesus in such a heartless and crude way.  I became the poster child for 1 Corinthians 13:1 and 3b:

“Though I speak with the tongues of men and angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal…it profits me nothing!”

      The concluding revelation I got from this, which took the scales from my eyes was this:

Jesus was nothing like that.  I was a religious nut! There was no love within me for the people, just a condemning spirit making a whole lot of noise. How many lives did I scare away from knowing Jesus?  I cannot count.

      About ten years later, the dream I had years prior was still in the back of my mind.  Although the dream changed my life (for the better), I still couldn’t figure out why the room in my dream was so bright, being that I was being nailed to a cross in Hell.  I pondered this for a long time, until one day in church, a pastor read an insert of Bill Wiese’s book, “23 Minutes In Hell”.  As the pastor read this man’s testimony of experiencing literal Hell, it gripped my attention, as well as everyone else’s in the room.  Then I said to myself, I’ll really believe him if he mentions people hung on crosses down there.  And lo and behold, he did! Nearly towards the end of his experience in Hell, he explained how he suddenly saw a bright light that filled his entire space and the light was coming from Jesus Christ, coming to remove him from Hell.  

 I was thrilled at this point.  Not only did I get confirmation about the crosses, but I also got revelation about why it was so bright in the room.   It came to my realization that the reason why it was so bright in my dream, being in Hell, was because Jesus was with me.  He was the Light (John 8:12, John 1:6-9)!  I now know that He gave me this surreal dream because He wanted to open my eyes to what a real and true Christian is–someone who follows and obeys Jesus Christ, living the life, understanding He is without limit in deed, in action, in self, and has a personal relationship with Him.

   Relationship was the part I had completely skipped, being full of rules that come with religion.  Jesus never called us to religion, but rather, a relationship with Him (Revelation 3:20; Matthew 11:28).


Author: Narrow Path Ministries

Non-denominational, Independent, Bible believing Church

8 thoughts on “VIDEO On My Way To Hell With Religion As My Guide”

  1. Reblogged this on Zero Lift-Off and commented:
    This testimony is pointing to another incidence or form of of how sometimes we twisting the Truth my Brother’s and Sisters in Christ Jesus!

    Religious at times means or connotes different things to different people! I think it’s good to try and explain here what is being said here by this Sister Jenny espouses. As I believe that we are to be following Jesus and by truly doing so we will be doing the Father’s will being a child of God and an instrument to serve His purposes and glory! I can’t be sure about her dream, but, I do know that if we are living as upright and in accordance with God’s Holy Word and thereby following His will we can rest assured that He knows we love Him! True be known, for some people they could just dive into a Bible by themselves or with a group and think they are automatically saved which may or may not be the case; only God can judge all things and will; so we need not fret about these things we have no power over nor the ability to fully understand and know God’s purposes as they are continually unfolding in our lives and throughout the world, all of which goes into who is going to be saved; when they each on sitting in the judgment seat before God and Jesus!

    So I am drawn immediately to this Holy Scripture that signifies quite clearly what Jesus did and is telling us to keep in mind daily!

    “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

    That is really to me the bottom-line of what it all comes down to at the end of the day; because as mentioned in the video message until a person’s last dying breath we can’t know what God the Father and Jesus know about each and every soul.

    Saint Dismas a scoundrel of a man and bad dude before he met Jesus Christ who was nailed to the cross next to his; he Dismas to the right side of Jesus saw all that transpired that day his final day, when his heart opened up like never before watching this man who said He is the Son of the Father in the heavenly eternal kingdom, saying things like, “Forgive them Father for they know not what they do!” Dismas was so rapt in awe he asked this dying man, the Savior, to “just remember me when you join your Father in Your kingdom.” He then in that moment being completely honest and humble having admitted he deserved every bit of what he was getting tied to a cross being crucified for all of his iniquities and sins, having wasted his life being a scoundrel. But, surely Jesus as Dismas correctly said, you deserve none of what they have done to you, you have to be who you say you are, just by how you are forgiving these same people doing this to you, you have shown not even one complaint or modicum of anger or hatred; “you are praying for them” instead! Can we really imagine that powerful scene! Dismas then asked Jesus in all humility and heart felt compassion not thinking in the slightest that he deserved even this; “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.” Jesus answered him, “I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise” (verses 42-43).

    By the grace of God and the power of Jesus Christ and His gift to us from the cross as with Dismas who had sins that would surely condemn him to hell; as he repented his sins, there and then, they were washed away; and his death was his entrance into Paradise. Amen.

    What about all of those years after the Crucifixion of Christ when there were no Bibles and how is a person to have a personal relationship with Jesus in that scenario, Impossible? In the video Sister Jenny mentioned how she was a holy-Rollie or religious nut, but came to realize that she really needed to know Jesus personally, and that her relationship was not complete, which is as I see it walking with Jesus daily allowing Him to lead us on our paths; which she may or may not have prior to having this insight, and we should know that these things are for God to judge. But, a person being very devoted to the daily practice of their faith may be different for some people, in that some spend hours praying while others think a few genuine moments of prayer is enough as long as the heart is where it should be, which is in the hands and loving care of Jesus; turning one’s life and soul over to Him our Savior!

    I’d like to add something saying flat out; I would love to see millions of faithful like Saint Mother Teresa was by her living example of faith and humility over what I sometimes see in some so called very faithful believers, who seem to be more business or self-styled or self-proclaimed believers, perhaps too much lip service without the follow through, and that can get very dangerous for any such person or anyone directly involved with such acclaimed believers. Who may very well be getting into the territory of being a false teacher or a distractor from Truth, God’s Truth; and who in such case has a manufactured or concocted self-Truth; a delusion.
    Jenny went on to say this, “What a real and true Christian is–someone who follows and obeys Jesus Christ, living the life, understanding He is without limit in deed, in action, in self, and has a personal relationship with Him.”

    That is sounding appropriate and good but we have to be absolutely sure we are listening to Jesus through the Holy Spirit and not our own inner voice or even demons. Jenny herself admitted she had for many years thought she had it pegged, and was fine. Jenny clarified further by saying how she missed the boat by this excerpt, “Relationship was the part I had completely skipped, being full of rules that come with religion. Jesus never called us to religion, but rather, a relationship with Him (Revelation 3:20; Matthew 11:28)”

    I can say this perhaps best by pointing to an extreme example of running off the rails, but, in all outward appearances seeming to be doing well enough, and I want to make it clear what I’m trying to convey here only to illustrate how many people can run off course or run amuck and be literally heading to hell; as Jenny herself said she may have been previously doing in her faith.

    I point out the example of Jim Jones having started out this way and how he went on to build his People’s Temple, and then proceeded to find followers which ultimately followed him to South America and death! When they were all instructed as he said by Jesus to drink the Kool-Aid laced with poison and 909 souls were sent to potentially hell, of course 1/3 were children, so I’m quite sure they are in heaven without any great uncertainty in my mind, as well many others who were easily led due to mental illness or some other pressures in their lives that were so overwhelming they thought it best to follow the leader, in this a madman; but, only God can judge it all. So those that were quite capable of having their wits about them may have lost it all because they weren’t following “Jesus” and didn’t even know Him, as Jenny said was the fear she was awakened to by her dream. Saint John Paul II is a Saint for a reason that a admire and love greatly as we know he came through the Roman Catholic Church; but again I’m overwhelmingly confident he is a Saint in heaven; because nobody can change God’s Truth. We do know all these things; if we are truly faithful by living “God’s Truth” and that is our focus we pray!

    Jenny did say this, how Jesus, “Saw through the eyes of the sinners.” I would like to say I hope it’s what I believe, that Jesus wasn’t seeing that way, but He was and is able to know all sinners as well as faithful totally! Because he is God and holy knowing all things but doesn’t have to see through anyone’s eyes, especially a sinner; I believe He just knows us all by our hearts! Amen.

    I want to add she was not a Pharisee unless she was living by the Old Testament, but if we live and speak of Jesus through the New Testament, in accordance with His New and Everlasting Covenant then we are following Him, which is “the way the truth and the life.” Amen.

    I want to share these pertinent Scriptures and a bit more of my own perspective here.

    “17Now I urge you, brothers, to watch out for those who create divisions and obstacles that are contrary to the teaching you have learned. Turn away from them. 18For such people are not serving our Lord Christ, but their own appetites. By smooth talk and flattery they deceive the hearts of the naive. 19Everyone has heard about your obedience, so I rejoice over you. But I want you to be wise about what is good and innocent about what is evil.” Romans 16:18-19

    “You may say that it is none of your business, but God knows and judges your motives. He keeps watch on you; he knows. And he will reward you according to what you do.” Proverbs 24:12

    I don’t like to even consider that I judge anyone because I sure deserve a lot of hurt for my own sins! But, though people will say or scoff at my approach at times, saying we should not judge I say back, that yes we can Discern and Evaluate by all we learned, along with letting Jesus lead the way first and foremost, stacked up against what we face each day; so that we can in a sense judge if we should be involved in a given situation or this or that, and even whether to bother with some person or not!

    I had people fake me out many times and then being a kind heart not always capable but wanting to forgive as the Lord did, so trying to go beyond our inherent or build in weak or lacking fallen capacity, I think OK, I forgive, but then I get involved again; and then the zinger comes again! Not being foolish is something God demands of us reminding us to remain sober and be vigilant that is what He wants us to do, to learn and take to heart what lesson came so hard, so that, we won’t do it again!

    Romans 8 “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus”
    Romans 8:28: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

    John 14:26 (KJV) – “But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.” God has a “gift” for all of us. The “gift of the Holy Ghost.” The Spirit baptism is the “promise of the Father.”

    John 14:26 “26 But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.”
    God bless you!

    Brother in Christ Jesus,
    Lawrence Morra III

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      1. Thank you very much brother in Christ Jesus!
        I do appreciate the opportunity to try my best to help a great effort and do Our Father’s will cooperatively when He calls us to do so! I only hope I listen well enough and don’t trip myself up as in the past I have done, finding out the hard way when the right and simple way was right there in front of me; Jesus!
        Keep up your fine faithful and inspirational efforts Brother!
        God bless you and yours!
        Brother Lawrence

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